Category Archives: Literature

Reading is my first love. I like reading classics, and inspirational books, and biographies, and detective stories, and fantasy, and children’s literature. I try to read a bit of other genres but more often than not I go back to the ones I love love love.

One Life. Six Words. Here’s Mine.

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I saw the book “Not Quite What I Was Planning” while browsing in the non-fiction area of the library. Apparently, Ernest Hemingway famously wrote the six-word story “For sale: baby shoes, never worn” and this started the challenge of telling a story in six words.

The catchphrase “One life. Six words. What’s yours?” was intriguing. And I started reading. Some were written by famous personalities, some by people I’ve never heard of. Here are some of my favorites:

“Danced in Fields of Infinite Possibilities.” – author Deepak Chopra

“Soul’d out so I could prophet.” – author Gotham Chopra, son of Deepak Chopra

“Cursed with cancer. Blessed with friends.” 9-year-old cancer survivor Hannah Davies

“Well, I thought it was funny.” – comedian Jon Stewart

Anyway, here are some of my own contributions –

Life’s not perfect but who cares?

Blessed beyond measure. Thank You, Lord!

Hated poop till I became mom.

I wish I had more money.

Married a man kinder than me.

Wants to write but too lazy.

When I first told Sidney about the six-word memoirs, he immediately gave his without batting an eyelash:

Shut up and do it quickly.

 

 

 

My Library Haul – July 2016

I was on leave on Monday but had such a busy day that I fell asleep late in the afternoon and woke up at 8 pm. I didn’t borrow any books for myself during my usual Saturday library visit with Lia, so I decided to go by myself at night. I had to rush because Bishan Public Library closes at 9 pm, plus I haven’t had dinner yet. Anyway, here are the books I borrowed –

Fiction

Agatha Christie, 4:50 from Paddington – I’ve been reading a lot of Agatha Christie lately, and so far my favorite character is Miss Marple. That’s why I intentionally looked for a Miss Marple book to read. The collection of her short stories are brilliant but the first Miss Marple novel that I read (At Bertram’s Hotel) was not as impressive, though still very good.

Agatha Christie, A Pocketful of Rye – Just a random Agatha Christie I got from the shelf. Agatha Christies are my new Hardy Boys and Nancy Drews.

Agatha Christie, Partners in Crime –  I read a Tommy and Tuppence book about 5 years ago and really enjoyed it, but to be honest I completely forgot about it. I was pleasantly surprised to find this among the Hercule Poirots and Miss Marples. I will definitely read this first.

Jodie Picoult, My Sister’s Keeper – I heard about this book since it came out in 2004, but never got around to actually reading it. I haven’t watched the movie either. When I saw this while I was browsing the shelf, I just grabbed it.

Non-Fiction

Tracey Clark, Elevate the Everyday Its tag line says “A Photographic Guide to Picturing Motherhood,” which is exactly what I want to learn. My hubby has always wanted me to learn photography with him, but I was never particularly interested… until now.

Larry Smith and Rachel Fershleiser, Not Quite What I Was Planning – In the introduction it mentioned the “six-word novel” widely believed to come from Ernest Hemmingway – “For sale: Baby shoes. Never worn.” This spurred the editors to ask people to submit their own six-word memoirs.

 

Favorite Peeta Quotes from Catching Fire

I was pleasantly surprised to notice how much comments and views I got on my blog posts about The Hunger Games. I just re-read the entire trilogy over the weekend, and thought I’d write a post on my favorite Peeta quotes from Catching Fire. You can also check out my favorite Peeta quotes from The Hunger Games here and my favorite Peeta and Katniss moments from Mockingjay here.

Wounded

After a while I hear footsteps behind me. It’ll be Haymitch, coming to chew me out. It’s not like I don’t deserve it, but I still don’t want to hear it. “I’m not in the mood for a lecture,” I warn the clump of weeds by my shoes.

“I’ll try to keep it brief.” Peeta takes a seat beside me. “I thought you were Haymitch,” I say.

“No, he’s still working on that muffin.” I watch as Peeta positions his artificial leg. “Bad day, huh?” “It’s nothing,” I say.

He takes a deep breath. “Look, Katniss, I’ve been wanting to talk to you about the way I acted on the train. I mean, the last train. The one that brought us home. I knew you had something with Gale. I was jealous of him before I even officially met you. And it wasn’t fair to hold you to anything that happened in the Games. I’m sorry.”

His apology takes me by surprise. It’s true that Peeta froze me out after I confessed that my love for him during the Games was something of an act. But I don’t hold that against him. In the arena, I’d played that romance angle for all it was worth. There had been times when I didn’t honestly know how I felt about him. I still don’t, really.

“I’m sorry, too,” I say. I’m not sure for what exactly. Maybe because there’s a real chance I’m about to destroy him.

“There’s nothing for you to be sorry about. You were just keeping us alive. But I don’t want us to go on like this, ignoring each other in real life and falling into the snow every time there’s a camera around. So I thought if I stopped being so, you know, wounded, we could take a shot at just being friends,” he says.

Losing You

“Peeta, how come I never know when you’re having a nightmare?” I say.

“I don’t know. I don’t think I cry out or thrash around or anything. I just come to, paralyzed with terror,” he says.

“You should wake me,” I say, thinking about how I can interrupt his sleep two or three times on a bad night. About how long it can take to calm me down.

“It’s not necessary. My nightmares are usually about losing you,” he says. “I’m okay once I realize you’re here.”

Her Cousin

“He was poaching. What business is it of hers, anyway?” says the man.

“He’s her cousin.” Peeta’s got my other arm now, but gently. “And she’s my fiancé. So if you want to get to him, expect to go through both of us.”

Just Go to Bed

Someone gives my shoulder a shake and I sit up. I’ve fallen asleep with my face on the table. The white cloth has left creases on my good cheek. The other, the one that took the lash from Thread, throbs painfully. Gale’s dead to the world, but his fingers are locked around mine. I smell fresh bread and turn my stiff neck to find Peeta looking down at me with such a sad expression. I get the sense that he’s been watching us awhile.

“Go on up to bed, Katniss. I’ll look after him now,” he says.

“Peeta. About what I said yesterday, about running—” I begin.

“I know,” he says. “There’s nothing to explain.”

I see the loaves of bread on the counter in the pale, snowy morning light. The blue shadows under his eyes. I wonder if he slept at all. Couldn’t have been long. I think of his agreeing to go with me yesterday, his stepping up beside me to protect Gale, his willingness to throw his lot in with mine entirely when I give him so little in return. No matter what I do, I’m hurting someone. “Peeta—”

“Just go to bed, okay?” he says.

Formal Request

So I give up trying to make friends and go over to the archery range for some sanity. It’s wonderful there, getting to try out all the different bows and arrows. The trainer, Tax, seeing that the standing targets offer no challenge for me, begins to launch these silly fake birds high into the air for me to hit. At first it seems stupid, but it turns out to be kind of fun. Much more like hunting a moving creature. Since I’m hitting everything he throws up, he starts increasing the number of birds he sends airborne. I forget the rest of the gym and the victors and how miserable I am and lose myself in the shooting. When I manage to take down five birds in one round, I realize it’s so quiet I can hear each one hit the floor. I turn and see the majority of the victors have stopped to watch me. Their faces show everything from envy to hatred to admiration.

After training, Peeta and I hang out, waiting for Haymitch and Effie to show up for dinner. When we’re called to eat, Haymitch pounces on me immediately. “So at least half the victors have instructed their mentors to request you as an ally. I know it can’t be your sunny personality.”

“They saw her shoot,” says Peeta with a smile. “Actually, I saw her shoot, for real, for the first time. I’m about to put in a formal request myself.”

The Rest of My Life

Peeta would lose it if he knew I was thinking any of this, so I only say, “So what should we do with our last few days?”

“I just want to spend every possible minute of the rest of my life with you,” Peeta replies.

Freeze

No one bothers us. By late afternoon, I lie with my head on Peeta’s lap, making a crown of flowers while he fiddles with my hair, claiming he’s practicing his knots. After a while, his hands go still. “What?” I ask.

“I wish I could freeze this moment, right here, right now, and live in it forever,” he says.

If It Weren’t for the Baby

“We’re already married,” says Peeta quietly. The crowd reacts in astonishment, and I have to bury my face in the folds of my skirt so they can’t see my confusion. Where on earth is he going with this?

“But … how can that be?” asks Caesar.

“Oh, it’s not an official marriage. We didn’t go to the Justice Building or anything. But we have this marriage ritual in District Twelve. I don’t know what it’s like in the other districts. But there’s this thing we do,” says Peeta, and he briefly describes the toasting.

“Were your families there?” asks Caesar.

“No, we didn’t tell anyone. Not even Haymitch. And Katniss’s mother would never have approved. But you see, we knew if we were married in the Capitol, there wouldn’t be a toasting. And neither of us really wanted to wait any longer. So one day, we just did it,” Peeta says. “And to us, we’re more married than any piece of paper or big party could make us.”

“So this was before the Quell?” says Caesar.

“Of course before the Quell. I’m sure we’d never have done it after we knew,” says Peeta, starting to get upset. “But who could’ve seen it coming? No one. We went through the Games, we were victors, everyone seemed so thrilled to see us together, and then out of nowhere—I mean, how could we anticipate a thing like that?”

“You couldn’t, Peeta.” Caesar puts an arm around his shoulders. “As you say, no one could’ve. But I have to confess, I’m glad you two had at least a few months of happiness together.”

Enormous applause. As if encouraged, I look up from my feathers and let the audience see my tragic smile of thanks. The residual smoke from the feathers has made my eyes teary, which adds a very nice touch.

“I’m not glad,” says Peeta. “I wish we had waited until the whole thing was done officially.”

This takes even Caesar aback. “Surely even a brief time is better than no time?”

“Maybe I’d think that, too, Caesar,” says Peeta bitterly, “if it weren’t for the baby.”

I Need You

“Katniss,” he says softly, “it’s no use pretending we don’t know what the other one is trying to do.” No, I guess there isn’t, but it’s no fun discussing it, either. Well, not for us, anyway. The Capitol viewers will be glued to their sets so they don’t miss one wretched word.

“I don’t know what kind of deal you think you’ve made with Haymitch, but you should know he made me promises as well.” Of course, I know this, too. He told Peeta they could keep me alive so that he wouldn’t be suspicious. “So I think we can assume he was lying to one of us.”

This gets my attention. A double deal. A double promise. With only Haymitch knowing which one is real. I raise my head, meet Peeta’s eyes. “Why are you saying this now?”

“Because I don’t want you forgetting how different our circumstances are. If you die, and I live, there’s no life for me at all back in District Twelve. You’re my whole life,” he says. “I would never be happy again.” I start to object but he puts a finger to my lips. “It’s different for you. I’m not saying it wouldn’t be hard. But there are other people who’d make your life worth living.”

Peeta pulls the chain with the gold disk from around his neck. He holds it in the moonlight so I can clearly see the mockingjay. Then his thumb slides along a catch I didn’t notice before and the disk pops open. It’s not solid, as I had thought, but a locket. And within the locket are photos. On the right side, my mother and Prim, laughing. And on the left, Gale. Actually smiling.

There is nothing in the world that could break me faster at this moment than these three faces. After what I heard this afternoon … it is the perfect weapon.

“Your family needs you, Katniss,” Peeta says.

My family. My mother. My sister. And my pretend cousin Gale. But Peeta’s intention is clear. That Gale really is my family, or will be one day, if I live. That I’ll marry him. So Peeta’s giving me his life and Gale at the same time. To let me know I shouldn’t ever have doubts about it.

Everything. That’s what Peeta wants me to take from him.

I wait for him to mention the baby, to play to the cameras, but he doesn’t. And that’s how I know that none of this is part of the Games. That he is telling me the truth about what he feels.

“No one really needs me,” he says, and there’s no self-pity in his voice. It’s true his family doesn’t need him. They will mourn him, as will a handful of friends. But they will get on. Even Haymitch, with the help of a lot of white liquor, will get on. I realize only one person will be damaged beyond repair if Peeta dies. Me.

“I do,” I say. “I need you.” He looks upset, takes a deep breath as if to begin a long argument, and that’s no good, no good at all, because he’ll start going on about Prim and my mother and everything and I’ll just get confused. So before he can talk, I stop his lips with a kiss.

I feel that thing again. The thing I only felt once before. In the cave last year, when I was trying to get Haymitch to send us food. I kissed Peeta about a thousand times during those Games and after. But there was only one kiss that made me feel something stir deep inside. Only one that made me want more. But my head wound started bleeding and he made me lie down.

This time, there is nothing but us to interrupt us. And after a few attempts, Peeta gives up on talking. The sensation inside me grows warmer and spreads out from my chest, down through my body, out along my arms and legs, to the tips of my being. Instead of satisfying me, the kisses have the opposite effect, of making my need greater. I thought I was something of an expert on hunger, but this is an entirely new kind.

Nothing But Oysters

Johanna keeps watch while Finnick, Peeta, and I clean and lay out the seafood. Peeta’s just pried open an oyster when I hear him give a laugh. “Hey, look at this!” He holds up a glistening, perfect pearl about the size of a pea. “You know, if you put enough pressure on coal it turns to pearls,” he says earnestly to Finnick.

“No, it doesn’t,” says Finnick dismissively. But I crack up, remembering that’s how a clueless Effie Trinket presented us to the people of the Capitol last year, before anyone knew us. As coal pressured into pearls by our weighty existence. Beauty that arose out of pain.

Peeta rinses the pearl off in the water and hands it to me. “For you.” I hold it out on my palm and examine its iridescent surface in the sunlight. Yes, I will keep it. For the few remaining hours of my life I will keep it close. This last gift from Peeta. The only one I can really accept. Perhaps it will give me strength in the final moments.

“Thanks,” I say, closing my fist around it. I look coolly into the blue eyes of the person who is now my greatest opponent, the person who would keep me alive at his own expense. And I promise myself I will defeat his plan.

The laughter drains from those eyes, and they are staring so intensely into mine, it’s like they can read my thoughts. “The locket didn’t work, did it?” Peeta says, even though Finnick is right there. Even though everyone can hear him. “Katniss?”

“It worked,” I say.

“But not the way I wanted it to,” he says, averting his glance. After that he will look at nothing but oysters.

My Thoughts on The Voyage of the Dawn Treader

Usually, after seeing one of the Narnia movies in the theater, I hasten to write my own thoughts and impressions before reading other people’s opinions and other people’s movie reviews. I do this to make sure that I write exactly what I personally think without influence from anyone else.

Unfortunately, for The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, I was too lazy to do this and so I’ve already read the mixed reviews out there on this movie. Well, I’ve seen the latest movie from Narnia franchise both in 3D and 2D, and I personally enjoyed the 2D version better (because I didn’t have to get distracted by the 3D glasses slipping off my nose).

Here are some of my not-so-organized thoughts on the movie.

 “You’re on the DAWN TREADER” (or so says the minotaur)

 Let me open with one of the funniest scenes in the movie, when Eustace was hysterically demanding to know where he was, and the minotaur told him that he was on the Dawn Treader. Eustace faints, and the surprised minotaur turns to Caspian and asks, “Was it something I said?”

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Anyway, I thought I’d dedicate a part in this blog entry about the boat itself, the Dawn Treader. During the production stage, I was looking at how this boat was being built, and I didn’t like it at all, mainly because I thought the dragon head looked scary. Well, come movie time, the Dawn Treader took my breath away – it was so lovely, and grand, and it had a wonderful purple sail!

The Eustace and Reepicheep Show (“It’s a dance, boy!”)

For some reason, there are two major characters in the Narnia books that I never particularly warmed up to – and those two are Eustace and Reepicheep. But this movie completely changed that.

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In the movie Prince Caspian, I did not enjoy how they made Reepicheep a comic relief because I felt he was too valiant and proud (in the book version at least), and he took himself too seriously. In The Voyage of the Dawn Treader though, I didn’t mind at all that Reep had so many funny lines. And I particularly loved his line, “We have nothing if not belief.”

There are two scenes involving Eustace that I really loved in the movie, even though they weren’t necessarilyl in the book. The first is the scene where Reepicheep turned the duel into a fencing lesson for Eustace (and Reep tells him, “It’s a dance, boy!” or something to that effect). We see a faint glimmer of the post-dragon Eustace in his initial reaction when Reep congratulated him afterwards, which was a tentative smile, which was of course followed by his defense about how the results would have been different if the playing field was more level.

Another scene I loved was when dragon Eustace grabbed Edmund, dramatically flew around the Dawn Treader, before showing him the words “I am Eustace” on the ground. I also loved how the dragon Eustace resembled the boy Eustace.

When Reep approached the teary eyed dragon who couldn’t sleep, I thought it was the sweetest thing. I also loved how he assured Eustace that extraordinary things happen to extraordinary people.

Another scene that I loved was when dragon Eustace saw the sea serpent and turned around in fright. Reep dropped to his nose and said, “Look at me!” Eustace looks at him sullenly, but did as he was told – he went back to fight.

I really thought these two stole the entire show, and I’m now fully confident that Eustace (or more correctly, Will Poulter) can carry the weight of the next movies on his shoulders (if they ever get made). After all, it will be all Eustace in The Silver Chair and The Last Battle (well, along with Jill Pole of course).

Finally, it’s Caspian, not Cathpian

I am SO glad that Ben Barnes went back to his natural British accent for the movie (and he grew an Aragornish beard as well!). There’s just something about Narnia that always felt British, so it really threw me (and a lot of other fans) off when Prince Caspian appeared on screen with a vaguely Mediterranean accent. Actually, the reason for the accent does make sense, it just didn’t feel right for me.

Edmund and His Never-Ending White Witch Flashbacks

I’m actually okay with all the White Witch flashbacks in Prince Caspian and The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, although a lot of fans are complaining about it. I understand that it’s there because they need a bit of continuity from one movie to another. But then again, the moviemakers need to consider that the Narnia series is a lot different from any of the other fantasy series out there – there are always new major characters in every book. Oh well. Perhaps if I’ve betrayed and nearly killed my siblings  as well as an entire country for turkish delight, I’ll probably have flashbacks for the rest of my life as well.

All in all, I thought Edmund and Lucy were very grown-up and mature in these movies, and they are getting better and looking better as they grow up. But I still liked them both better in The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe because there was something so raw and natural about how they acted.

The Swirly Green Mist

Okay, so this was the plot twist I was most worried about. I’m not too happy about it, but I can live with it. I just hope they made it that way and that color as a foreshadowing of the Lady of the Green Kirtle, the villain in the next Narnia movie, The Silver Chair. I just hope that if they ever made that into a movie, they won’t get Tilda Swinton for the role because it would be way too confusing for a lot of movie-goers.

All in all, I was very pleased with this movie, and I hope it earns enough to get the next Narnia movie greenlit. In the meantime, I’m going to do my part to help the movie make money by watching it as many times as I can afford, and getting my friends and family to watch it too. I still have faith that they can make The Silver Chair, mainly because I’d love to see Puddleglum on the big screen. As Reepicheep said, “We have nothing if not belief.”

The Very Few Tender Moments Between Katniss and Peeta in Mockingjay

Initially I was worried that Mockingjay would cater too much to the fans of the love angle between Katniss and Peeta by having too many tender moments between the two. After all, there were parts in The Hunger Games and Catching Fire where I cringed a bit, because I thought Suzanne Collins was taking things too far. But the opposite thing actually happened – there were too few. Blame it on the Capitol.

Here are the very few tender moments between the two tributes from District 12, the victors of the 74th Hunger Games. You can also check out my favorite Peeta quotes from The Hunger Games here and from Catching Fire here.

He DID Love Her A Lot

I’ve just reached the door when his voice stops me. “Katniss. I remember about the bread.”

The bread. Our one moment of real connection before the Hunger Games.

“They showed you the tape of me talking about it,” I say.

“No. Is there a tape of you talking about it? Why didn’t the Capitol use it against me?” he asks.

“I made it the day you were rescued,” I answer. The pain in my chest wraps around my ribs like a vise. The dancing was a mistake. “So what do you remember?”

“You. In the rain,” he says softly. “Digging in our rubbish bins. Burning the bread. My mother hitting me. Taking the bread out for the pig but then giving it to you instead.”

‘That’s it. That’s what happened,” I say. “The next day, after school, I wanted to thank you. But I didn’t know how.”

“We were outside at the end of the day. I tried to catch your eye. You looked away. And then… for some reason, I think you picked a dandelion.” I nod. He does remember. I have never spoken about that moment aloud. “I must have loved you a lot.”

Like the Sunset

At a few minutes before four, Peeta turns to me again. “Your favourite colour… it’s green?”

“That’s right.” Then I think of something to add. “And yours is orange.”

“Orange?” He seems unconvinced.

“Not bright orange. But soft. Like the sunset,” I say. “At least, that’s what you told me once.”

“Oh.” He closes his eyes briefly, maybe trying to conjure up that sunset, then nods his head. “Thank you.”

But more words tumble out. “You’re a painter. You’re a baker. You like to sleep with the windows open. You never take sugar in your tea. And you always double-knot your shoelaces.”

Then I dive into my tent before I do something stupid like cry.

Lamb Stew

I poke around in the pile, about to settle on some cod chowder, when Peeta holds out a can to me. “Here.”

I take it, not knowing what to expect. The label reads LAMB STEW.

I press my lips together at the memories of rain dripping through stones, my inept attempts at flirting, and the aroma of my favourite Capitol dish in the chilly air. So some part of it must still be in his head, too. How happy, how hungry, how close we were when that picnic basket arrived outside our cave.

That’s What They Do

In the fluorescent light, the circles under his eyes look like bruises. “There’s still time. You should sleep.” Unresisting, he lies back down, but just stares at the needle on one of the dials as it twitches from side to side. Slowly, as I would with a wounded animal, my hand stretches out and brushes a wave of hair from his forehead. He freezes at my touch, but doesn’t recoil. So I continue to gently smooth back his hair. It’s the first time I voluntarily touched him since the last arena.

“You’re still trying to protect me. Real or not real,” he whispers.

“Real,” I answer. It seems to require more explanation. “Because that’s what you and I do. Protect each other.”

Always

Only one figure stays huddled against the wall. “Peeta,” I say. There’s no response. Has he blacked out? I crouch in front of him, pulling his cuffed hands from his face. “Peeta?” His eyes are like black pools, the pupils dilated so that the blue irises have all but vanished. The muscles in his wrists are hard as metal.

“Leave me,” he whispers. “I can’t hang on.”

“Yes. You can!” I tell him.

Peeta shakes his head. “I’m losing it. I’ll go mad. Like them.”

Like the mutts. Like a rabid beast bent on ripping my throat out. And here, finally here in this place, in these circumstances, I will really have to kill him. And Snow will win. Hot, bitter hatred courses through me. Snow has won too much already today.

It’s a long shot, it’s suicide maybe, but I do the only thing I can think of. I lean in and kiss Peeta full on the mouth. His whole body starts shuddering, but I keep my lips pressed to his until I have to come up for air. My hands slide up his wrists to clasp his. “Don’t let him take you from me.”

Peeta’s panting hard as he fights the nightmares raging in his head. “No. I don’t want to…”

I clench his hands to the point of ain. “Stay with me.”

His pupils contract to pinpoints, dilate again rapidly, and then return to something resembling normality. “Always,” he murmurs.

So Tired

While Cressida and Pollux make fur nests for each of us, I attend to Peeta’s wrists. Gently rinsing away the blood, putting on an antiseptic, and bandaging them beneath the cuffs. “You’ve got to keep them clean, otherwise the infection could spread, and –“

“I know what blood poisoning is, Katniss,” says Peeta. “Even if my mother isn’t a healer.”

I’m jolted back in time, to another wound, another set of bandages. “You said the same thing to me in the first Hunger Games. Real or not real?”

“Real,” he says. “And you risked your life getting the medicine that saved me?”

“Real.” I shrug. “You were the reason I was alive to do it.”

“Was I?” The comment throws him into confusion. Some shiny memory must be fighting for his attention because his body tenses and his newly bandaged wrists strain against the metal cuffs. Then all the energy saps from his body. “I’m so tired, Katniss.”

Nothing Foolish

I get out the key, unlock Peeta’s cuffs and stuff them in my pocket. He rubs his wrists. Flexes them. I feel a kind of desperation rising up in me. It’s like I’m back in the Quarter Quell, with Beetee giving Johanna and me that coil of wire.

“Listen,” I say. “Don’t do anything foolish.”

“No. It’s last-resort stuff. Completely,” he says.

I wrap my arms around his neck, feel his arms hesitate before they embrace me. Not as steady as they once were, but still warm and strong. A thousand moments surge through me. All the times these arms were my only refuge from the world. Perhaps not fully appreciated then, but so sweet in my memory, and now gone for ever.

Can’t Let Go

I raise my left arm and twist my neck down to rip off the pill on my sleeve. Instead my teeth sink into flesh. I yank my head back in confusion to find myself looking into Peeta’s eyes, only now they hold my gaze. Blood runs from the teeth marks on the hand he clamped over my nightlock. “Let me go!” I snarl at him, trying to wrest my arm from his grasp.

“I can’t,” he says.

The Dandelion in the Spring

Peeta and I grow back together again. There are still moments when he clutches the back of a chair and hangs on until the flashbacks are over. I wake screaming from nightmares of mutts and lost children. But his arms are there to comfort me. And eventually his lips. On the night I feel that thing again, the hunger that overtook me on the beach, I know this would have happened anyway. That what I need to survive is not Gale’s fire, kindled with rage and hatred. I have plenty of fire myself. What I need is the dandelion in the spring. The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction. The promise that life can go on, no matter how bad our losses. That it can be good again. And only Peeta can give me that.

So after, when he whispers, “You love me. Real or not real?”

I tell him, “Real.”

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Funniest Moments in Mockingjay (Book 3 of The Hunger Games Trilogy)

Mockingjay is a more serious book compared to the first two in the trilogy (The Hunger Games and Catching Fire), so it’s understandable that there are very few funny moments. Here are my three favorites.

# 3 – Hungry Haymitch 

Haymitch in my head full-time. Horrifying. “I’ll keep the earpiece in,” I mutter.

“Excuse me?” he says.

“You sure? Because I’m equally happy with any of the three options,” he tells me.

“I’m sure,” I say. I scrunch up the earpiece wire protectively in my fist and fling the head shackle back in his face with my free hand, but he catches it easily. Probably was expecting me to throw it. “Anything else?”

Haymitch rises to go. “While I was waiting… I ate your lunch.”

# 2 – Half-Naked Finnick

She snags Gale, who’s in conversation with Plutarch, and spins him towards us. “Isn’t he handsome?”

Gale does look striking in the uniform, I guess. But the question just embarrasses us both, given our history. I’m trying to think of a witty comeback, when Boggs says brusquely, “Well, don’t expect us to be too impressed. We just saw Finnick Odair in his underwear.”

# 1 – Katniss Is Not a Mutt

Back in 13, Peeta’s rehabilitation continues. Even though I don’t ask, Plutarch gives me cheerful updates on the phone like, “Good news, Katniss! I think we’ve almost got him convinced you’re not a mutt!”

My First Impression of Mockingjay

I know Mockingjay was supposed to come out last August 24, and I reserved a copy in several bookstores here in Singapore. However, none of them knew when the book was actually coming out. Finally, after what felt like weeks in agony, someone from Harris (in Somerset 313) called to inform me that I could get my copy on that day. That was on a Thursday, August 26. I had plans for the night, but dropped by the bookstore, and started reading it as soon as I could. Even though I had work early the next day, I didn’t want to rush things, so I took it slowly and finished at 4:15 am. After 3 hours of sleep, I headed to work.

Before you continue reading, let me give you a big SPOILER ALERT. I’m going to talk about how the book ends, so feel free to go somewhere else if you don’t want to read any spoilers.

Here are some things I liked (or not liked) about Mockingjay – in no particular order.

1. There wasn’t too much mushy gooey stuff happening between Katniss and Peeta – whether it’s real or not real (*wink*wink*). I mean, I like them both and wanted them to be together in the end, but I don’t really want to read too much lovey-dovey conversations.

2. The book did a good job of showing how broken and psychogically unstable a person can be after exposure to so much violence. You begin to understand why Haymitch is the way he is. After all, who wouldn’t want to escape reality if your reality is like that?

3. I actually liked how the Gale-Katniss relationship was concluded to pave the way for Peeta. With Katniss never really knowing whether Gale was responsible for Prim’s death – it’s just haunting and so final.

4. I’m not sure I like the idea of President Snow dying because he choked on his blood while laughing too hard. It’s not exactly the ending I envisioned for him.

5. However, the way Katniss assasinated President Coin instead of Snow is truly something I didn’t expect. Although I’ve been ambivalent about Coin from the start – never really knowing on which side she is, I sort of wanted some kind of confrontation between Katniss and Coin.

6. Another thing I didn’t expect was how Peeta’s first action upon seeing Katniss was to try to kill her. I mean, who on earth would have seen that coming? It’s like you keep waiting for Peeta to make an appearance, but when he does, it’s not the Peeta you expect.

7. I don’t like the way Finnick died though. It was too low-key for such a major character for both books 2 and 3.

8. I had the feeling that another major character would die towards the end, but I didn’t want it to be Prim. Because the entire story started when Katniss volunteered for the Hunger Games to save Prim’s life, and in the end it was still Prim who dies while Katniss survives.

9. I like the relationship that developed between Katniss and Johanna. I bet if they both weren’t so prickly, especially with each other, they would actually become pretty good friends.

10. Though it may seem like a contradiction to the first point I raised, I was a bit disappointed that there were so few tender moments between Katniss and Peeta.

Favorite Peeta Quotes from The Hunger Games

The Hunger Games is currently my favorite guilty pleasure. I read the first two books of the trilogy repeatedly for almost a week, and I can’t wait till Mockingjay comes out in August. When I first read The Hunger Games and Catching Fire, I was more involved in the action – the quest to survive, the violence and all that. On my second reading, I started noticing the romance. Lately, I’ve been noticing more of the humor. For such a dark book, there are portions that made me literally laugh out loud. You have to hand it to the baker’s son to always say something funny. Here are some of my favorite Peeta Mellark quotes from the first book.

“What about you? I’ve seen you in the market. You can lift hundred pound bags of flour,” I snap at him. “Tell him that. That’s not nothing.”

“Yes, and I’m sure the arena will be full of bags of flour for me to chuck at people.”

Then we move on to camouflage. Peeta genuinely seems to enjoy this station, swirling a combination of mud and clay and berry juices around on his pale skin, weaving disguises from vines and leaves. The trainer who runs the camouflage station is full of enthusiasm at his work.

“I do the cakes,” he admits to me.

“The cakes?” I ask. I’ve been preoccupied with watching the boy from District 2 send a spear through a dummy’s heart from fifteen yards. “What cakes?”

“At home. The iced ones, for the bakery,” he says….

“It’s lovely. If only you could frost someone to death,” I say.

“Don’t be so superior. You can never tell what you’ll find in the arena. Say it’s actually a gigantic cake —” begins Peeta.

“Really, is anything less impressive than watching a person pick up a heavy ball and throw it a couple of yards. One almost landed on my foot.”

Caesar asks him if he has a girlfriend back home.

Peeta hesitates, then gives an unconvincing shake of his head.

“Handsome lad like you. There must be some special girl. Come on, what’s her name?” says Caesar.

Peeta sighs. “Well, there is this one girl. I’ve had a crush on her ever since I can remember. But I’m pretty sure she didn’t know I was alive until the reaping.”

Sounds of sympathy from the crowd. Unrequited love they can relate to.

“She have another fellow?” asks Caesar.

“I don’t know, but a lot of boys like her,” says Peeta.

“So, here’s what you do. You win, you go home. She can’t turn you down then, eh?” says Caesar encouragingly.

“I don’t think it’s going to work out. Winning . . . won’t help in my case,” says Peeta.

“Why ever not?” says Caesar, mystified.

Peeta blushes beet red and stammers out. “Because… because… she came here with me.”

“What’s going on?” says Effie, a note of hysteria in her voice. “Did you fall?”

“After she shoved me,” says Peeta as Effie and Cinna help him up.

“She’s just worried about her boyfriend,” says Peeta gruffly, tossing away a bloody piece of the urn.

My cheeks burn again at the thought of Gale. “I don’t have a boyfriend.”

“Whatever,” says Peeta. “But I bet he’s smart enough to know a bluff when he sees it. Besides you didn’t say you loved me. So what does it matter?”

My foot has just broken the surface of the water when I hear a voice.

“You here to finish me off, sweetheart?”

I whip around. It’s come from the left, so I can’t pick it up very well. And the voice was hoarse and weak. Still, it must have been Peeta. Who else in the arena would call me sweetheart?

My eyes peruse the bank, but there’s nothing. Just mud, the plants, the base of the rocks.

“Peeta?” I whisper. “Where are you?” There’s no answer. Could I just have imagined it? No, I’m certain it was real and very close at hand, too. “Peeta?” I creep along the bank.

“Well, don’t step on me.”

I jump back. His voice was right under my feet. Still there’s nothing. Then his eyes open, unmistakably blue in the brown mud and green leaves. I gasp and am rewarded with a hint of white teeth as he laughs.

It’s the final word in camouflage. Forget chucking weights around. Peeta should have gone into his private session with the Gamemakers and painted himself into a tree. Or a boulder. Or a muddy bank full of weeds.

“Close your eyes again,” I order. He does, and his mouth, too, and completely disappears. Most of what I judge to be his body is actually under a layer of mud and plants. His face and arms are so artfully disguised as to be invisible. I kneel beside him. “I guess all those hours decorating cakes paid off.”

Peeta smiles. “Yes, frosting. The final defense of the dying.”

Within minutes of pressing the handful of chewed-up green stuff into the wound, pus begins running down the side of his leg. I tell myself this is a good thing and bite the inside of my cheek hard because my breakfast is threatening to make a reappearance.

“Katniss?” Peeta says. I meet his eyes, knowing my face must be some shade of green. He mouths the words. “How about that kiss?”

I burst out laughing because the whole thing is so revolting I can’t stand it.

“Something wrong?” he asks a little too innocently.

“You’re such a bad liar, Katniss. I don’t know how you’ve survived this long.” He begins to mimic me. “I knew that goat would be a little gold mine. You’re a little cooler though. Of course, I’m not going. He shakes his head. “Never gamble at cards. You’ll lose your last coin,” he says.

“Tomorrow’s a hunting day,” I say.

“I won’t be much help with that,” Peeta says. “I’ve never hunted before.”

“I’ll kill and you cook,” I say. “And you can always gather.”

“I wish there was some sort of bread bush out there,” says Peeta.

“Peeta,” I say lightly. “You said at the interview you’d had a crush on me forever. When did forever start?”

“Oh, let’s see. I guess the first day of school. We were five. You had on a red plaid dress and your hair . . . it was in two braids instead of one. My father pointed you out when we were waiting to line up,” Peeta says.

“Your father? Why?” I ask.

“He said, ‘See that little girl? I wanted to marry her mother, but she ran off with a coal miner,’” Peeta says.

“What? You’re making that up!” I exclaim.

“No, true story,” Peeta says. “And I said, ‘A coal miner? Why did she want a coal miner if she could’ve had you?’ And he said, ‘Because when he sings . . . even the birds stop to listen.’”

“That’s true. They do. I mean, they did,” I say. I’m stunned and surprisingly moved, thinking of the baker telling this to Peeta. It strikes me that my own reluctance to sing, my own dismissal of music might not really be that I think it’s a waste of time. It might be because it reminds me too much of my father.

“So that day, in music assembly, the teacher asked who knew the valley song. Your hand shot right up in the air. She stood you up on a stool and had you sing it for us. And I swear, every bird outside the windows fell silent,” Peeta says.

“Oh, please,” I say, laughing.

“No, it happened. And right when your song ended, I knew — just like your mother — I was a goner,” Peeta says. “Then for the next eleven years, I tried to work up the nerve to talk to you.”

“Without success,” I add.

“Without success. So, in a way, my name being drawn in the reaping was a real piece of luck,” says Peeta.

Peeta wriggles back inside, his face lit up like the sun. “I guess Haymitch finally got tired of watching us starve.”

A disturbing thought hits me. “But then, our only neighbor will be Haymitch!”

“Ah, that’ll be nice,” says Peeta, tightening his arms around me. “You and me and Haymitch. Very cozy. Picnics, birthdays, long winter nights around the fire retelling old Hunger Games’ tales.”

“I told you, he hates me!” I say, but I can’t help laughing at the image of Haymitch becoming my new pal.

“Only sometimes. When he’s sober, I’ve never heard him say one negative thing about you,” says Peeta.

“He’s never sober!” I protest.

“That’s right. Who am I thinking of? Oh, I know. It’s Cinna who likes you. But that’s mainly because you didn’t try to run when he set you on fire,” says Peeta. “On the other hand, Haymitch . . . well, if I were you, I’d avoid Haymitch completely. He hates you.”

“I thought you said I was his favorite,” I say.

“He hates me more,” says Peeta. “I don’t think people in general are his sort of thing.”

“So do we hunt on empty stomachs to give us an edge?”

“Not us,” I say. “We stuff ourselves to give us staying power.”

“It was all for the Games,” Peeta says. “How you acted.”

“Not all of it,” I say, tightly holding onto my flowers.

“Then how much? No, forget that. I guess the real question is what’s going to be left when we get home?” he says.

“I don’t know. The closer we get to District Twelve, the more confused I get,” I say. He waits, for further explanation, but none’s forthcoming.

“Well, let me know when you work it out,” he says, and the pain in his voice is palpable.

UPDATE: You can also check out my favorite Peeta quotes from Catching Fire here and my favorite Peeta and Katniss moments from Mockingjay here.

What I Thought about The Lovely Bones

Lovely_Bones_coverFor the past few weeks, I’ve been meaning to get a copy of “The Lovely Bones” by Alice Sebold. I knew there was a movie, but that wasn’t the reason why I wanted to read it. The reason was that while passing by a bookstore one night, I read the summary at the back of the book. I haven’t been able to get the story out of mind since then. If it was written in the first person from the point of view of a murdered child, and if we know of her murder from the onset, what else is there to talk about? Shouldn’t her murder be the climax of the novel?

Well finally I got a copy of the book last night. My biggest mistake was deciding to browse through the first few paragraphs of chapter one at 12 midnight. The narrative starts at the heart of the matter – no lengthy descriptions to set up the story – and it was definitely gripping. I found myself unable to put it down and finished reading until 4 am. (As a result, I slept through my alarm clock and woke up with a start at 8 am, nearly late for work).

The narrator, Susie Salmon, opens the story by introducing herself in a very matter-of-fact way: ”My name was Salmon, like the fish; first name, Susie. I was 14 when I was murdered on Dec. 6, 1973.” At first I thought the story would be about the search for her killer, but that wouldn’t really make sense if she was the one telling the story from “heaven” because she would presumably know who killed her. At any rate, by page 2, the readers know that it is Mr. Harvey, an eccentric neighbor of the Salmons.

What follows is a coming-of-age story about a person who will never age. If that doesn’t seem to make sense, perhaps it is better described as a coming-to-terms story in that it tells how her family has finally come to terms with their loss, and how the narrator finally comes to terms with her death.

There are a couple of parts in the book that were so well written that they admittedly gave me the creeps. The first was how Susie described how she was being raped, like how she was gagged with her own hat. It was rather graphic, and her voice was very convincing as a teenager. The second was how her soul violently separated from her body in her death and accidentally ran through a classmate – the last person she was able to “touch” – before she went to the afterlife.

There is one thing about the story that I really really hate though. Susie is finally granted her wish and was able to inhabit the body of her classmate Ruth for a few minutes. For a short time, she was able to return to earth. You’d think that her first instict would be to tell everyone who killed her, how she was killed, and where her body can be found. You’d think she’d immediately rush home to embrace her family, comfort her parents and talk to her siblings. But no, what she does is seduce her long-time crush and sleep with him. After they were done, that’s the only time she thought of calling home, but by then it was too late and her soul was on its way back to her “heaven.”

Another questionable portion for me is how after-life is portrayed, since this isn’t what I believe in personally. However, I do understand that people with different belief systems have different concepts of heaven. The “heaven” in this book seems to consist of two parts – an in-between “heaven” where you get anything you wish for – dogs, a gazebo, a school where your textbook is Seventeen and Vogue – and the real “heaven.”

In the end, this story is not just about how the living has to let go of the dead in order to move on with their lives, but also about how the dead has to let go of the living in order to get to the real “heaven.”

A Christian Book Review on Twilight

NOTE: This is a book review I did for Squeaky Clean Reviews, a website that analyzes books from a Christian perspective. (You can read my review here.)

Although I did enjoy Twilight, I would have to say that Christians should read this with caution. I would also advise teens to read this with parental or adult supervision, especially the next three books.

PLOT

Following the Romeo and Juliet motif, this is the story of impossible love. Bella Swan leaves sunny Phoenix, Arizona to live with her dad in rainy Forks, Washington. There she meets and gets intrigued by her mysterious Biology lab partner, Edward Cullen. The attraction between them grows, but their relationship is complicated by the fact that Edward is a vampire.

MORALITY

Here are some of the issues raised about the book.

1. There will always be the question of whether romanticizing traditionally evil creatures such as vampires is wrong. Similar to the debate about having good witches in Harry Potter, this series started the debate on the acceptability of good vampires as protagonists.

2. Some of the characters have supernatural gifts. One of them sees visions of the future, which could be considered occultic.

3. Bella is willing to give up her soul to be with Edward for all eternity without hesitation, even though Edward believes that vampires go to hell in the end.

4. Bella lies to her parents repeatedly. She also allows Edward to stay at her bedroom every night without her father’s knowledge.

However, there are also themes in the story that could be good talking points for teens and their parents.

1. Edward (and his family) resists the temptation to kill people despite their thirst for human blood. They go against their very nature in order to do what they believe is right.

2. Even though he loves Bella, Edward doesn’t want her to become a vampire too because he doesn’t want to endanger her soul.

SPIRITUAL CONTENT

There are deeper spiritual discussions in the succeeding books, but in the first book, Edward mentions the age-old question of evolution and creation and even makes reference to the Creator in this quote:

“Well, where did you come from? Evolution? Creation? Couldn’t we have evolved in the same way as other species, predator and prey? Or, if you don’t believe that all this world could have just happened on its own, which is hard for me to accept myself, is it so hard to believe that the same force that created the delicate angelfish with the shark, the baby seal and the killer whale, could create both our kinds together?”

VIOLENCE

There is some violence towards the end, although it is not described too graphically.

DRUG AND ALCOHOL CONTENT

In describing his attraction to the scent of Bella’s blood, Edward makes references to alcoholics and drug addicts. One of the most popular lines from the book and the movie is “You are exactly my brand of heroin.”

SEXUAL CONTENT

The main characters make out, and Bella sleeps in Edward’s arms nearly every night (although nothing happens, since Edward is adamant about keeping both their virginity).

CRUDE OR PROFANE LANGUAGE OR CONTENT

Some of the characters sometimes display disrespect towards their parents. Obsessive, unhealthy love seems to be encouraged.

CONCLUSION

This is an interesting read for people who are willing to overlook the negative points in the story. It’s fast-paced and quite entertaining. However, because of some of the questionable elements of the story, parents are advised to warn young teens or new believers from reading this book as it may negatively affect their relationship with God.